wow, to me, that sounds like something so much better that what is going on for me now, 'cause I lost the most important friend to me, then, slowly, over the course of one or two years, I lost every other friend I had, made new ones, the new ones betrayed me in the worst way betrayal can happen (ie getting the person you love to hate and not want to talk to you), and now I sit here with my memories of what used to be, and at the same time what most likely will never happen again. Oh, wait, I actually used mind altering drugs and inhalents to try to forget you and it didn't work any longer than a week... dam, what am I supposed to do?